new normal

Today is one of those days that I would have called Randi.

I would have called her to tell her about going to the dentist to have a mouth guard made to hopefully stop my popping jaw. They had me do a bunch of weird things, then they put this pink stuff on my teeth and took prints of where my teeth touch. It looked like chewed up gum. They put this big metal thing on my face and measured me from ear to ear with a thing on my nose. I have a feeling I'm going to have one of those head gear things like she had when she had braces.

Randi was the person I would call about this. I would tell the story a little more dramatically than it actually happened and then we would laugh too hard to finish our sentences and we'd make up things that didn't happen at the dentist.

I always called Randi about medical questions...or just random questions. She knows everything...except when it comes to hair and make up, that's my specialty. That is what I would get calls about. We are the perfect balance of sisters...she is the smart on and I am the pretty one (haha she's laughing about that right now don't worry)

I use to ask my mom what I am good at...for example, Spencer can make anyone LOVE him he knows how to melt peoples hearts and people flock to him! AJ is good with money and numbers, he knows about investing and the best and cheapest way to do things. Randi is good at EVERYTHING! star athlete, made friends like Spencer, Smart like AJ..she was a chiropractor at 23...Me? I was never amazing at anything...I'm good at a lot of things but when I asked my mom what my thing was she told me "you hold this family together" and now it is all making sense.

Yesterday my bishop told me "life won't get back to normal, but it will be a new normal." and that is exactly how I feel right now. I can't call Randi today like I normally would have, but the new normal is this. I can write it down and remember what normal use to be and then bring myself back to the new normal. I'm living life in the new normal and it's starting to feel good.

7 weeks

this was meant to be posted last night...but blogger was being stupid


It's 9pm...which may not seem late to any one else, but right now my body is confused and telling me it is 3am...I haven't been sleeping well (obviously). I should have gone to bed probably 2 hours ago...but I just kept thinking this day isn't over yet. And then I had the sudden urge to write this post. At this moment I'm anxious and I know I will cry, but it's time for me to put this in print...


7 weeks ago my sister passed away. There aren't words that can even describe the hurt and sorrow that I feel everyday, even while I'm sleeping my heart is so sad!

On August 25, 2010 (My parents 31st wedding anniversary) we found out that the spot on Randi's lung was a tumor...Cancer had made itself a home even though it was more than uninvited there. It had spread and she started treatments very soon after.

She put up as much of a fight as her body would allow...Randi IS a fighter, I would never expect less from her. But, she was obviously too good for this world and Heavenly Father wanted her home. She left behind her heart in her 4 amazing, beautiful, spectacular little girls. I think the thing that saddens me the most is that these girls wont get to laugh until they cry, have their hair french braided, or learn how to shave their legs with their Mom. These are things plus many many more that I got to do with Randi, that I hope to tell her girls when they need a piece of their Mom. Every memory that I have i hold very sacred to my heart and I almost feel like I don't want to share them with any one else, I almost feel like if I share them with other people it will be less vivid to me.

Randi is my sister...a sister is so much more than a best friend could ever be and nothing will ever fill the emptiness that I feel but I KNOW it will get better. I KNOW that I will get to see my sister again, we'll get to play catch and brush each other's hair. I KNOW she is with my future babies teaching them everything they will need to know and giving them a little bit of her. They know her. She is loving on them SO much right now, while watching over the four most important girls in my family's lives.

Randi I love you and I miss you everyday! There are days that I pick up my phone to call you, then I realize you won't answer...but I also realize you know what I would be calling you about and I laugh, just because you knew before I even had the thought to tell you! You always did know everything!!


And to all our family and friends...I have been 95% absent from the world and I'm sorry I didn't express my gratitude for all the love and support that was shown to us. But, please know that your love and prayers are getting me out of bed in the morning and continuing on with my life. It's helping me be an example to the rest of my family. I don't even know how to show you how much love I have for you! I am at a complete loss for words in this whole situation, and yet, I have too many words to say. Nothing would compare to what everyone has done for us and her girls. I am so incredibly grateful!!


Thank you Thank you Thank you

im not maing a habit of this

i try really hard to make it a goal not to complain...i know that no matter what my circumstances are someone else is suffering worse than i am and i have no reason to complain.

but sometimes you just have to let it all out...

i am tired of bugs...in hawaii no matter how many times you deep clean everyone always has bugs...cockroaches, roaches, beetles, ants, mosquitos etc etc etc. i am so tired of it. ugh somedays i come home and want to scream then cry i get so frustrated because they will not go away.

ever since we got back from the mainland the hot water in the kitchen is way off. it will be nice and hot one minute then we dont have any hot water at all. then the next time we use the sink we have hot water for about 2 seconds then its gone

our oven has been being wierd for a while. it wont cook even. i know this because in the past i made perfectly golden cakes, cupcakes, and cookies. now i get stuff out and the center is dough but theouter edge is crispy. just tonight i made cupcakes the insides were done but no matte what i did the cupcakes in the middle wouldnt get gold and the cupcakes on the outer edge of the pan were turning brown. so i ended up with a bunch of sticky topped cupakes which are pretty dificult to frost with homemade nutella icing (tastes amazing but hard to get the right consistency...that was another temper tantrum ugh)

i want a dishwasher

i am so ready to go see my parents in maui in 2 weeks. im going to need it. and this time my husband gets to island hop with me and we all get to play for 3 days yay

2010 round up

I'm copying everybody else and posting all of 2010 at once...then I'll be caught up haha


JANUARY
January brought a new year. Bryce and I went to see Elton John, we spoke in church, and we were riding our bikes all over town!!

FEBRUARY
Our first married Valentine's day :) We saw the Beach Boys and Uncle Jesse, I also went to the Beach with miss AmyNicole and cleaned up, we tried to win tickets to the Kokua festival, but we weren't that lucky. We also survived a Tsunami!! It never really made it to Hawaii but we did have life packed up and we were outta here. and I got a new nephew!

MARCH
March didn't bring too much excitement. I applied to a new job and was keeping my fingers crossed that i would get it

APRIL
Happy Birthday to me haha. April was exciting. We celebrated my 24th Birthday, by eating huge pancakes and I swam with dolphins. I got the job at started working at Turtle Bay. Spencer came to visit! We went to the Kokua festival AND one of my BFF's came home from serving a full time mission for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints in Peru.

MAY
We celebrated moms. I made my mom a gift and I have to say it was pretty awesome. My favorite oldest nephew also turned 4. and Ryan turned 3...this is insane

JUNE
We got to go to California for Jay's wedding. I got to hang out with my family. See the Newport temple. Reunite with my other 2/3's TRES HOMIES son!! I met Parker, saw Shawna again. We went to a waterpark with Bryce's family. It was definitely the summer break we needed. Cadie also turned 5 this month, it made me sad haha

JULY
Bryce's Grandma and Grandpa came to visit. Bryce's Mom and little brother also came to visit. It was an exciting month! We went to Turtle Bay to watch the fireworks and have a picnic. We have a little birthday celebration for Bryce. and I was officially transferred to the salon at work

AUGUST
My parents came to Hawaii to celebrate their 31st wedding anniversary on the Garden Isle and since I have 2 days off of course I crashed on the couch in their hotel! We kayaked up the Wailua River went on a hike, and just got to hang out! The day after my parents got home Randi was diagnosed with lung cancer, they made their way out to New York and we all started the war against cancer

SEPTEMBER
I don't think September is ever an exciting month. School was back in session so the grocery store was crazy, it slowed down a little bit at work and that's the most exciting thing about the ninth month of the year

OCTOBER
Spencer and Amanda came out to visit. We tried to spend some time with them, it was hard though they came the week of 10/10/10 one of the busiest wedding days of the year. but it was good seeing them!! Bryce and I celebrated out 1 year anniversary! We went to Kona for a weekend trip! We hung out at some beaches and took a bus tour around the whole island. We saw a volcano and hiked to our secret beach. We ate a lot of frozen yogurt and good food! We went to the Kona temple and did a session! The next weekend I hopped on a 13 hour flight to Syracuse New York. I surprised my nieces and got to be there as a late birthday present for Alyssa, she's a decade old now, weird. I went trick or treating and played games, snuggled and laughed, and made a few trips to the doctors with Randi to help her with her fight

NOVEMBER
The Laie Hawaii temple was rededicated! Bryce's grandparents came out again, we went to the dedication and later that week we went and did a session. This is probably the prettiest temple I have seen so far. The prophet was staying at the resort, and just knowing he was that close to me really make work enjoyable and everyday was a good day. But Satan was definitely working hard. That week we had more rude comments about members then ever. Thanksgiving we all got to have a family dinner and spend time together. Peyton turned 2 the day after I left New York and the day before Spencer got there.

DECEMBER
MELE KALIKIMAKA!! I love this time of year. The Christmas tress and lights. The Holiday music singing about Christ and his love and sacrifice for us being played everywhere you go!! We need to celebrate CHRISTmas more than once a year. Bryce and I woke up early opened our gifts and I went to work. After work we went to LeiLei's for our Christmas dinner. New Years Eve we went downt the street to a block party and watched the ball drop at Bryce's Aunt and Uncle's house (they didn't even show the ball dropping tho...)


Now it is 2011. I don't know what this year will bring but come what may and love it.

I'm hoping for (aka resolutions and other things)

To be healthier and in better shape
my family and friends to be healthy, happy, and safe
Randi to kick cancer's ass
I hope that we as well as you and yours have a WONDERFUL year...after all it started out a lucky year 1/1/11 how much better can it get?


sorry i didn't put any pictures once again I'm too lazy haha

Lets hear it for NEW YORK!!!

Ok, so I have time to update, the chicken noodle soup is simmering and the bread is rising!!

Back around Halloween I went out to New York to visit my favorite little girls!! I got there the day after Alyssa's 10th birthday (TEN YEARS OLD!!! WHAT HAPPENED TO THE OTHER 9 YEARS???)I have a very long 13 hour flight. I got to LA at about 5AM and had about 45 minutes to get on my night flight...I got to Detroit and had about 45 minutes to get to my last flight (yeah super short layovers and it still took 13 hours) I finally arrived in Syracuse New York...almost 24 Hawaiian hours later. oh boy was i exhausted and ready to be off the plane.We drove an hour to the base and we pulled up and Alyssa and Cadie came running out and SURPRISE there I was..they didn't know I was coming!!

I spent a week there hanging out with my favorites and helping Randi and accompanying her to a few doctors appointments. I'm so glad I got to go out there and spend that time with the girls. I miss them SO much





Here's Peyton, she turned 2 the day after I left and this was my first time meeting her. She's super cute like her sisters, but I don't think she liked me haha
I can't get enough of these cute girls in their costumes



Ryan was SUPERGIRL! haha, Randi and I played a game with her...'what do you like more...Kasey or (fill in the blank)' We used other family members names, different things, whatever we could come up with, she chose everything over me...even dog poop HAHA but she really did like me by the time I left. Our game was so funny though in the middle of Wal Mart

See how big lyssa is now? I don't know why she isnt smiling...ill make sure to punch her the next time I see her for that

I took Alyssa and Cadie to the roller rink one day, they were so cute and Cadie was doing tricks haha, she would slowly be moving and bend down to touch her foot and stick her other foot out...I wish I lived a lot closer to these girls! Today they started their move to Texas...a little bit closer, definitely better than a 13 hour flight

much needed

Apparently Shawna wants me to update...

I have a million things to update about

Spencer and Amanda came to visit

Mine and Bryce's big island trip

My trip to New York

My 3 hours in LA

The Temple rededication

The Cultural Celebration

Christmas coming up

BUT...

I am on the laptop and I can't upload pictures on the laptop, I have to be on the desktop and the kitchen and the couch are about 15 feet away from each other and tonight that 15 feet is 15 feet too many

So Shawna you will have to continue being patient :) Hopefully soon I will be a good blogger...until then, find someone else to stalk haha (love ya Chawna)

a thought for thunking

When you hear these things what do you think?

Guess What?!
I have something to tell you
I'm tired
Hey, I meant to call you the other day to tell you something
call me we need to talk

What is the first thing that comes to your mind??

For some reason lately whenever I say any of these to people (even if there's an explanation before said statement) their response is "ARE YOU PREGNANT?!?"

I am not, and when I am I don't think I'll say "I've never slept very well at night, I'm really tired today" and i won't say "guess what"

sorry just had to get that out

I am not pregnant

The Garden Island

I thought this was good enough for blogging!!

My parents were coming to Hawaii for their anniversary/vacation...sadly they didn't come to O'ahu...but goodly (i made that up) they went to Kauai and I had never been! It was the perfect opportunity to take advantage of. I was on a plane Monday night after work and landed in Kauai about 20 minutes later (the best flight i have EVER been on haha). My parents were waiting for me at the airport and we headed back to Princeville on the North Shore. We got back to the resort and my parents gave me a tour then we were all sound asleep.
Tuesday morning we decided to go on a hike i think it was the kalalau trail. it was an 11 mile hike to a waterfall. We made it about half way. My dad was so funny as soon as it would start raining he would hide under a tree and wait for it to let up. I told him if we wait we're going to end up getting to an open area and it will pour...sure enough it let up enough for my dad to start hiking, we get to a completely open area and it POURED we were soaked!!

We went to a small town (every town in Kauai is small) Hanalei, we had lunch, shave ice and just browsed a few shops.

We went back to our room and sat by the pool and played cards
Wednesday morning mom woke me up EARLY to do her hair. We headed to kapaa for our kayak tour. We kayaked up the wailua river about 2.5 miles did a little hike and stopped at 'secret falls' a waterfall that is only accessible by water.we hung out hiked back that kayed back. Everyone said the kayak back would be easier...we didnt even think about the fact that we were heading back to the ocean, where all the wind is coming from...we had no help! but it was fun

We stayed in kapaa a little bit longer then mom and dad took me back to the airport and i headed back to Oahu.
Here are some pictures in no particular order haha





Those are the only pictures you get haha I'm too lazy to do more, go to my facebook to see them all!

Long time coming

This post has been a long time coming...or rather it's just been a long time since ive posted anything.

I don't even know what we've been up to lately, it's hard to keep track when you work all the time and there are many times your husband travels to the outer islands for work.

SInce I last posted we have definitly done a few things...

In June Bryces Best friend was married! we made the trip to California, spent a few days with my family, went to the Newport temple for the sealing and spent a few days with his family. We went to a water park and it had been so long since I had last been to hurrican harbor i forgot how much fun water parks actually are.

I got to meet Robynne and Benj's baby Parker...aka my 3rd nephew haha and I got to see my Chawna Poo who got home from her mission in April, it wasa tres homies reunion after not being together for almost 3 years!

After our trip to California Bryces grandparents came to Hawaii for a visit and baby Kenzie's blessing. Half way through their trip Bryce's mom and little brother Seth came to visit and they left about a week and a half ago, they were here for 3 weeks!!!

I am now in the salon at work and it's fantastic. I am in the process of my facial training! yay!!!

And I have a new cupcake hobby...I'll have to copy the pictures fro Bryce's facebook to post but for now I'm over this..

Peace out

one whole hand

aahhh these kids NEED to stop growing

Today this girl turned 5!!

Cadie you are one whole hand old!

can you please stop it at that? we don't want to use two hands

You're the best cadie cat i know!!

Have a spectacular birthday and pretend I'm there to give you a billion kisses

sounds like magic

Bryce said the magic words Saturday while he was watching some engadget tech show...


"WHEN we go to New York..."

There was more to that statement, but that was the only part that mattered..up until Saturday the only thing he said about N.Y. was

"I'm not going to New York, it can be a girl thing"



We've made excellent progress

my favorite 4 year old

i can't play favorites...so he's my favorite 4 year old boy! cadie is still 4 for another 18 days

today this cute kid turned 4

I have the world's best nephew (and cutest)! and don't try to argue that

Happy Birthday Jacob! YOU'RE HUGE!!!

pink is my favorite color

If I had a choice I would be my favorite color all the time

I enjoyed the sunshine today and I am a little bit pink...but definitely not red...I am the perfect shade of pink. after being such a whitey growing up I would turn fire engine red...sometimes a little pink feels good!!

The job is still going spectacular
I will have to take a pic of Randi's bday present when I get the last picture from her because I think it's way cool
I was given a project at work today and it took about 10 times longer than it should have but I love doing little projects
I did pilates today

It was a good day

Work ($$)
Beach
Friend
Projects
Pilates (wierd)

But it was a good tuesday

and i am excited for my 'day off' tomorrow (its my day off but i have to go in for 3 hours still...I don't understand how that works!!)

Good night moon!

birthday babble

i have to be up at 5:30 am and its 10:30 pm and I am no longer a night owl/have i ever been a morning person...but as I sit here with my eyes ready to close i felt the desire to blog

But i dont really have anything to blog about.

I made my moms mothers day present today as well as randis birthday present (her birthday was the 21st of april) the siblings really slack on birthday presents sometimes...sometimes ill give spencer his bday present for christmas and his christmas present for his birthday. It would work, except for the fact that we're like little kids and we tell each other what we're buying for each other, so when it comes for the next holiday it was actually for the last...

or i'm on top of things and buy gifts and give them to my sibling months before as a 'just because' but then 5 minutes later i tell them it's their birthday present so don't expect anything for your birthday...i love my family!

I did get a head start on Jacobs birthday present though...his birthday is in a week...but i need to get started on AJ's his birthday is in -1 day...aka 364 days...aka i didnt get him anything yet. its so much easier when you live close by...especially when your siblings have kids...you give them a gc for a restaurant and you babysit the rugrat for the night...two pluses...they get to go out and you get to play with your amazingly awesome nephew and give him as much candy as his little heart desires and snuggle until he can't keep his eyes open anymore.

ANYWAY hopefully one day I will be better at getting gifts on time to people.

until them AJ happy birthday...you'll have your birthday present for father's day

and spencer ill get started tomorrow so that it'll only be a month late instead of 5

oui and i have in laws that i need to prepare for this week...too many freakin birthdays


I vote we only celebrate my birthday and birthdays for people under 12...we have something in common...we don't care what our pesent is as long as we get to rip wrapping paper and eat cake and ice cream!


tata blogspot.com until i have something interesting to share with you

visitors visiting

3 days after my birthday Spencer came to visit (see how busy I've been...birthdays, new job, visitors, etc) He's been to Hawaii before but in the Waikiki area, so he requested to see the real Hawaii...which is good since that is where we live bahaha

I had to work full time still when he was here so i didn't get to do too much fun stuff with him...but we did go to kokua festival (I think 2008 was better) it was fun to hang out and see jack johnson for the second time...he was so chill, he got to perform at home so he was a lot more relaxed and just cruise about the whole performance which was kind of cool but at the same time it felt like he wasn't giving it 100%...but whatev's

Spencer and Bryce spent a few days at the beach getting horrible sunburns.

I took him to the hukilau cafe and uncle Bobo's. We went to Haleiwa and watched people trying to 'SUP' (stand up paddle). We went to Leilei's and Ala Moana Shopping Center. We got asked by a few people if we were honeymooning...?...and they visited me at work. While he was here Bryce's aunt had her baby so Bryce and I took turns watching the boys while trying to keep Spencer busy his last day here...all in all it was a nice vacation for him and he's spreading a rumor that he's going to come back in July.




We went to Waimea valley and walked around...this is the closest he would get to the peacock...i got closer muahahaha




and here we are at the kokua festival!! he had gotten here the day before and was still on a wierd time schedule so he was as tired as he looked!!

Thanks for coming to visit Spence! I'll see you in June and possibly July!!

the birthday of randi roo

I just have to do a 'shout out' for my sister. her birthday is 2 days after mine...we are almost exactly 5 years apart...except somehow i turned 24 this year and she turned 22 again...im starting to get really confused!

since our birthdays were only 2 days apart my family always had one birthday celebration...when we were little we'd go to my grandparents for easter and the aunts, uncles, and cousins would be there and with all of our easter celebrations we would also have a little birthday celebration as well.
As we go older it would just be our family going out to eat or having a little celebration. and it seems that every time we had our 'big birthdays' it was always the same year...i turned 13 she turned 18...i turned 16 she turned 21...you get the idea.

As well as sharing a cake and dinner, the last few years we were all together, there was usually a present for each of us that had to be opened at the same time...usually we'd end up opening our boxes and and pulling out the same usc shirt, jersey, hat, or something dodgers and then we'd get a day with dad at a usc baseball game or dodger event! that was one of my favorite things growing up...knowing I'd get a fun day with randi and my dad!

Growing up I always felt bad that she had to share her birthday with her little sister...but now that we dont get to do that I miss it so much! I cant wait for the day to celebrate both of our birthdays together again!

I love you Randi Roo

my birfday

aahhh i have been so busy i have so much to update on!!!

We'll start with April birthdays...

MY BIRTHDAY YAY
my birthday was april 19, and for the first time ever i didn't get to ditch work/school and had to be an adult and work...boo...but my wonderful husband made sure to make it a very happy birthday!!

the saturday before we got up and went to mac 24/7, where they did an episode of man vs food...so of course i had to order the same thing and get the gigantic pancakes
i think they were 14 inches big! i ate and ate and ate and bryce ate and we barely even touched those pancakes but mmm they were so good! they were blueberry pancakes (just like man vs food duh) and they had a glaze on...like an icing mmm i love all things sugary and sweet!!

then he took me to sea life park and i got to swim with a dolphin!!! this is something that i have always wanted to do and i got to do it. I have a picture of me kissing the wolphin (part whale part dolphin) but i haven't scanned it yet...maybe someday. and i got to ride on the dolphins belly! yeah boi! i was so excited!!

new job new day

i officially started my new job yesterday (yes the only downfall, i may have to work sundays) BUT so far I love it! the people are very friendly and it's so nice having a job that people actually want to be at!

I am a spa concierge at Spa Luana at Turtle Bay I am basically the receptionist and they're also training me to be a spa attendant which does all the stuff in the back PLUS since I am a licensed cosmetologist I am licensed to do hair skin and nails...therefore even though I wasn't hired as a stylist I will also be trained on the color line, nail services, skin and body treatments! This will be such a good thing for me in the long run! I won't even have to go back to school to learn these things, I will be getting paid to learn them! I'm so excited.

Turtle Bay offers AMAZING benefits to employees..health, vision, dental, life insurance (All absolutely free) discounts at the resort and other benchmark hospitality properties all over the world!! yipee!!!

it's only 10 minutes from home (instead of 45...makes a HUGE difference)

That is my very exciting news...Also Spencer comes in 9 days...we're going to see jack johnson in 10 days...oh yeah and my birthday is in 7 days! woohoo

wednesday wednesday!!

aahhhh!!

This is the most exciting thing a Wednesday could ever offer!!
My BFF got home from her mission today!

She has been in Peru for the last 18 months, and today at 1pm-ish she got back to california...the only bad thing about it...I'm in Hawaii and the other BFF is due to have a baby tomorrow so neither of us could be there :(

But in June we will be reunited for the first time in almost 3 years!! (after robynne was married i was immature and was mad at her for about a year and a half...until shawna left for her mission and shawnas wish was for me and robynne to reconcile...so thats what we did!)





I know these pictures are small but i was too lazy to do the whole hard drive thing, so i stole them from my facebook and that's how they turned out!

i talked to my cute nephew jacob today...for the first time in a year sad but so exciting!

I can't believe how cute he is and how much he has grown.

I asked him what he did at school today

his response "i colored a picture, i did good"
k: 'i bet you did good'
j: 'yeah i know!'

hahahaha

the rest of the conversation was me asking questions and him saying yeah...except when he told me he has a lot of presents at home haha

i cant wait to give this kid kisses again!