new normal

Today is one of those days that I would have called Randi.

I would have called her to tell her about going to the dentist to have a mouth guard made to hopefully stop my popping jaw. They had me do a bunch of weird things, then they put this pink stuff on my teeth and took prints of where my teeth touch. It looked like chewed up gum. They put this big metal thing on my face and measured me from ear to ear with a thing on my nose. I have a feeling I'm going to have one of those head gear things like she had when she had braces.

Randi was the person I would call about this. I would tell the story a little more dramatically than it actually happened and then we would laugh too hard to finish our sentences and we'd make up things that didn't happen at the dentist.

I always called Randi about medical questions...or just random questions. She knows everything...except when it comes to hair and make up, that's my specialty. That is what I would get calls about. We are the perfect balance of sisters...she is the smart on and I am the pretty one (haha she's laughing about that right now don't worry)

I use to ask my mom what I am good at...for example, Spencer can make anyone LOVE him he knows how to melt peoples hearts and people flock to him! AJ is good with money and numbers, he knows about investing and the best and cheapest way to do things. Randi is good at EVERYTHING! star athlete, made friends like Spencer, Smart like AJ..she was a chiropractor at 23...Me? I was never amazing at anything...I'm good at a lot of things but when I asked my mom what my thing was she told me "you hold this family together" and now it is all making sense.

Yesterday my bishop told me "life won't get back to normal, but it will be a new normal." and that is exactly how I feel right now. I can't call Randi today like I normally would have, but the new normal is this. I can write it down and remember what normal use to be and then bring myself back to the new normal. I'm living life in the new normal and it's starting to feel good.